--- Page 1 --- --- Page 2 --- nio Habit Carter Brolvit Litmry àromt Whtinersitr --- Page 3 --- --- Page 4 --- --- Page 5 --- A SHORT ACCOUNT OF THE EXTRAORDINARY LIFE AAND TRAYELS OF H. L. L - - NATIVE OF St. DOMINGO, NOW A PRISONER OF WAR AT ASHBOURN, IN DERBYSHIRER Shewing the Remarkable steps of Divinc Provis dence towards him, and the means of his Conversion to GOD. seor Naked camc I out of my Mothers womb, and naked shall T return thither: the LORD gave, and the LORD hath taken away; Blessed be the name of the LORD. Job. chap. I ver. 2I Thy Righteousness is like the great mountains; thy judgment are a great deep: O LORD, thou preservest Man and Beast. Psalm. Chap. 36 ver. 6. WRITTEN BY HIS OWN HAND. ENTERED AT STATIONERS HALL. PRINTED AND SOLD BY PARKES ASHBOURN, BURDITT LONDON, AND PRITCHARD DERBY. I'rice One Shilling. N --- Page 6 --- --- Page 7 --- OBSERY.ATION. Irs is not doubtful, ( as it is a common method that lifc, and all what is 272 this worid, 1 my and cricontained therein, will be contradicted ticised; but as it hath pleased GOD to reveal the of the way of the truth, unto me mystery therefore (ofwhich I hope I am not igmorant;) and cricontradictions, I expect persecutions, knowing, that whosoever ticism to take place; will live according to the Gospei of CHRIST, must while in this vale of tears go through much sufferings and pains: for thus is the road that Therefore let leads to everlasting happiness. true born soul know, that as our: SA-, every VIOUR suffered for us: : SO must we in return of suffer for his for the blessing Redemption, sakc. for unto 125 it is given, 2n the behalf of CHRIST, not only to belteve UR him, but aljo to Jufer for his fake. phi. chap. i. ver. 29. Ithercfore leave to the public to say what they pleasc of this book; but the GOD in whom I have trusted shali be the judge of it. Finally, the decisive day of our LORD, will put a determination to all our works, whcther they be acceptablc, or not, --- Page 8 --- - t 80. 10 to rb 3, --- Page 9 --- 4t TO THE READER. osiyrsr Ix reading this little work, (not only to read brut to meditate,) you will fee the difappointments that there is in. great riches ofthis world. J thofe things, Ethe their truft. Oh! reader, which men put number? if art thou of that unhappy but to. thou art, delay no longer, fountain go JESUS CHRIST, who 1S the thee of durable riches, and také with the words of the Poët? 66 whom have I creature 66 in heaven but thee thatcan thy *blefs? what were all the Earth to me, to all lis vanisif a stranger thy peace? and darknefs, 66 ty but CHRIST, pain a: and difpair, rankling in a finner's 22 there. 66 breaft, till thou art prefent and Art thou in profperity, be Joyful, praife thy GUD; art thou in adverfity, confider: for GOD hath fet the one the other, to the end that over againft find after him. Be man Thould nothing weaknefs of not as thofe, which through whenfaith, dare not trult their GOD, foever in poverty or diftrefs; for I never knew of any that trufted in GOD, and were yet confounded; He furely will'supply the wants of all thofe who Art thou in profperity, be Joyful, praife thy GUD; art thou in adverfity, confider: for GOD hath fet the one the other, to the end that over againft find after him. Be man Thould nothing weaknefs of not as thofe, which through whenfaith, dare not trult their GOD, foever in poverty or diftrefs; for I never knew of any that trufted in GOD, and were yet confounded; He furely will'supply the wants of all thofe who --- Page 10 --- t being fenfible of their fins, him: and lo, (ays CHRIST) groan I after you alway, even unto the end am with world. of the Read, and read again this thou mighteft know, that book, that GOD hath a child, there will wherefoever his and that to protect him; eyes be, run to a certain ; though he wickednefs, but degrec of fins at aey him as a bran from the lalt He will fnatch and let him know, that eternal it burning, him that willeth, is not of neth, but of his nor of him that run. mercy. Oh! had good pleafure to fhew 6t not GOD fhown his 6s becn? mercy to mc, where fhould I have in the broad 6t everlafting road that leads to cc and dolelome mifery, yea in the dark ec out a glimmering dungcon ofdifpair,withce ingly bewailing ray ofhope; everlaft. See how the words my of miferable the delliny. 2> prove true to my cafe; 6 holy prophet cs of them that afked Ian fought 6c found of them that not for me 3 Iam Oh! ifever Iam fo fought me not." within a blefled view of happy the as to reach fellion of faints, what a debtor happy pofbe to mercy and free Ihail I grace alone ; to --- Page 11 --- vit and unwilfave fuch an ungovernable 66 Oh! foulit is ling creature as i: my the 6c hard for thee to kick againit fo long defwho haft 66 pricks"! thou, and fet at nought the 66 pifed, rejected, of GOD, art now 66 commandments obedience through thy SAVIOUR'S to know the way *and blood brought 6 of Salvation. Dear reader, art thou a blafphemer, GOD? if of the words of or a defpifer will advife thee to take a thou art, I cafe, and warning in reading my for fear thou to contider about 1t, for ever into eterfheuldeft be plunged nal Delay no longer to'open mifery. before the merciful GOD, thy cafe 1it fhould be ever fo defperate; though for He is all-fufficient, yea all-power- thine imful, to plead the caufe of whatmortal foul, and to bring to pals foever thou Thalt commit into his hands, for He ever liveth to make interceffion for fenfiblet finners, and to brigh- * I allude this passage to a Ship the going of straightways a sinner to against resist the wind; for it is no of more GOD, in than power it is for a Ship to the will and mercies the wind. possib.e go straightways against that GOD makes us sensible that, we are + Remcmber, sinners, i the caufe of whatmortal foul, and to bring to pals foever thou Thalt commit into his hands, for He ever liveth to make interceffion for fenfiblet finners, and to brigh- * I allude this passage to a Ship the going of straightways a sinner to against resist the wind; for it is no of more GOD, in than power it is for a Ship to the will and mercies the wind. possib.e go straightways against that GOD makes us sensible that, we are + Remcmber, sinners, i --- Page 12 --- TIM ten their cvidences for the of a future and everlafling approaching Didit thou cver read, or Glory. hear mentioned, oft the compallionate invitation of our blefled SAVIOUR when He lived on Earth; where He ce that cometh to ( saith, ce him 66 no wife caft me I belicving ) Iwili in out, but I €6 will raife him up at the laft day. 29 Perhaps thou say'it in thine owh heart, CHRIST is no more upon the Earth thatI go to him. Knoweft thou not faithlefs might e man or woman, that though CHRIST 1S no more upon the Earth, that He'is the fame yelterday, to day, and for evers and hath the fame power to fave and to bring to heaven whom. He will: and now that He is in his holy manfion, iS He not Alill the fame? yca, Hc is ftill entreating his Father on our bchalf, and his bowels are always melting in mercy towards us his rebellious Children; and his moft precious arms and pierced hands, which we ourfelves have crucificd, are always extended to receive prodigals and backfliders home: forI am (Jays CHRIST) the friend of finners, Ieateth and drinketh with them; ; therefore let him that is athirit come, and --- Page 13 --- take of the water of life freely. Oh! reader, ahocver thou art, I pray GOD through Grace, that thou and 7, might be of that happy and highly favouved munber, that fhall fing above zeith the 27n26merable legions blejed Angels, the chorus of the viélory 1 a wounded and feffering SAVIOUR. AMEN. H. L. L. B --- Page 14 --- --- Page 15 --- INTRODUCTION. the GOD oftruth was pleased to open I have my blindi often Ever siuce to the knowledge of the trath, of eyes, and 1.cad inc Life past, and how thc divine providence creature as gneditated upon my and preserted, such a worthless and useful GOD, has delivered, 1 therefore think it proper and my I out of divers dangers: and give a short account of my 'GOD, Life, hoping 40 take mny knowledge of the truc and living it may, be calling to Taloe Eternal - the ahut by the Blessing who of Lovc to meditate JEHOVAH, upon the mysterious sade uscful to wonder those working GOD. ways of the 2 0-e thc divine providence creature as gneditated upon my and preserted, such a worthless and useful GOD, has delivered, 1 therefore think it proper and my I out of divers dangers: and give a short account of my 'GOD, Life, hoping 40 take mny knowledge of the truc and living it may, be calling to Taloe Eternal - the ahut by the Blessing who of Lovc to meditate JEHOVAH, upon the mysterious sade uscful to wonder those working GOD. ways of the 2 0-e born in the once proud and haughty was in the Parish of St. Rosc, Island of St. Domingo, parents. My Faof Ancient and respectable the most accomplished ther and Mother, were and ways according to their Religion for union they were equal in fortunc, of worshiping; when united together they had cach a plantation, good livelihood. made them an excceding for to write my But I have not taken my pen here then my parents History, but my In own: the year one thounarration shall begin. the Sixth and cighty-three, sand seven-hundred and nine o'Clock of September, betwixt eight forth into a in the morning I was brought the twentyWorld of troubles, and was baptised Father in the same ycar, by fourth of November Curale; and had for Tulien Capuchin Missionary Brother, and for GodGod-father my Mother's Father's Sister. mother my that I was born, I never From the day of health; for I was sO enjoyed a good state I looked more like a weak and Sickly, that for my Death Specure than a human creature; in me was. daily and Hourly expected, was --- Page 16 --- L 12) T1 à, of Deatly: I was in that seen the very picture séventh year; when tituation iI attained my whom forced to Jeave a Mother by I was loved, and a Father that cheI was dearly above all eartily creatures. rished me well remember, - For onc-Morning I yet very Father called (though 1 did mot expect it,) my and lead and two cldest Brothers also, me my where I saw her us into my Mother's when chamber, there I could not help avceping her bitterly: what was the matter that she was asking she made no reply but by sighs erying so.; manher she and tears; when in a sympathetic me with iook me, up. in her arms and pressed bedewed my tenderness to her bosom and dilliinnocent face with tears; it was with great and that she consented to let me go; culty Brothers in the like manthen she kissed my sooth her sorrows, ner, when we left her to: the loss: in the mean and to console hersclfto into our coach, and aime my Father handed us Town. gare orders. to drive away cffected to by this sudI was some time silent, through the window den change; when looking little Sisters stretchof the coach, I saw both if my it were to bid me the ing out their arms as that I Jast Adieu; the scene was SO affecting, Father to ask my could not restrain, myscifbut I did not hnow where we were going t00; (Jor He satisfied any thing about that sudden jourRey.) sending us into saying, that he was me, by and that he would France for our education, one. no expence to give us a guod spare den change; when looking little Sisters stretchof the coach, I saw both if my it were to bid me the ing out their arms as that I Jast Adieu; the scene was SO affecting, Father to ask my could not restrain, myscifbut I did not hnow where we were going t00; (Jor He satisfied any thing about that sudden jourRey.) sending us into saying, that he was me, by and that he would France for our education, one. no expence to give us a guod spare --- Page 17 --- 13) afternoon we' 'reached the Town, and D In the my Father bcing alighted at' tthe Crown-Hotel: were - to delay not weil in health, we of obliged three wecks; our voyage for the space- time was come to scand whem the appointed and tender, I was perate us' from a- Fatheridear which state I remained for taken' very. ill, in same time the Captain of some days; at the Father know that he the Ship came to let my and that he was could-not wait any longer, My Father, Anchor the next day. to weigh swell, thiey shallbe ready though very ill,waid, 99 (Iwas then but 4togo with you to-mnorrow. inudiferent int héalth. ) took het took . placc; The most affecting parting the Sea-side where US by the hiand and led us'to in the most pathcwc were to-embark, and said, beloved Children! ticr manner. My most that you must be parted sithe time is now coine whom you are dearly loved; 64 from a' Father; by time from almost dead 66 reccive for the last tenderness ER my love to6; lips, the pledge and know:I shall never'live to see 5 wards you; forI therlast of your Fa66 you again, SO take never see parting him any more; 4 ther, for you shall that you will behold the C to day is the last time duty forced me to G Author of your days: and my education will 4 send you into France, your 2) 6. be a friend to you when in distress. us to a genBefore we parted he recommended should ileman that was on board, and that nothing he withdrew, be wanted forour care. And then towards us in the extending his arms once morc --- Page 18 --- (14) distressing manner: SO that we werc filled most with grief and sorrow to sec our Father in such a melancholy state. course with a fair wind and We begun our weather, which continued for several days. good About twenty days after we were upon the Sca, the wind rose with such violence, that WC expected evcry instant to be cast into the depth of the Ocean: we was in that situation for time, till at last it pleased the a considerable the waves, and ta ALMIGHTY to appease a in send fair weather. We were seventy-two days of crossing the immense Occan, at the end which we landed at Bordeaux. Myself and my Brothers were received with great kindness by our Banker, to whom we delivered the letter concerning our coming into France. school in the The next day we werc sent to of same Town, to give us the first beginning cducation before we could go to College. Three months after we were arrived in France, received a letter sealed in black from our we in which the Death of our Father was Mother, confirmed: his last parting from this World is to relate. he died happos too cutting (51 hope ssand hope to meet him 222 Glory.") - Though I was sO young, the impression ofthe Death of my Father planged me into such state, that soon after I was seized a melancholy violent fever; no rest was to be found. with a while: in the strongest of my pain I for a long of bed and run about the used to get out my 4; Oh! chamber like a madman, crying out, - my : his last parting from this World is to relate. he died happos too cutting (51 hope ssand hope to meet him 222 Glory.") - Though I was sO young, the impression ofthe Death of my Father planged me into such state, that soon after I was seized a melancholy violent fever; no rest was to be found. with a while: in the strongest of my pain I for a long of bed and run about the used to get out my 4; Oh! chamber like a madman, crying out, - my --- Page 19 --- t:5) Father is no morc. s I was in Father! my before my health was that state for six months, established. Father's desire was to give us a good As my he told my Mother when on his education, that WC must be removed as soo1 Death-bed, to the College: accordingly wC were as possible the South of France, at the distance oftwo-hundred sent into and twenty miles from Bordeaux, thc of Soreze, one ofthe most emito College of teaching that ever cxisted since nent World places began; for cvery thing, consisting the of Arts and Sciences was to be léarned. Here is an account of what the College conMasters, ninety; besides ten sisted. Teaching maintain the police into the yards: prefects to scholars. Instruments of and twelve-hundred sorts tO be learned'; Latin, Greck, Music of all Italian, and Frénch German, Spanish, learned; English, Writing of different tongucs to be Arithmetic; Drawing of all sorts; Reading; as also the Landkinds, both of Human-likeness, French and English; Anscape: Dancing, both Literature, Declacient History, Chronology, Structurc, Poesy, Rhe: mation, Fortification, Natural History, Geometoric, Philosophy, Statics, Fentry, Geography, Trigonometry, Exercise, Natation, Ar: cings Riding, Military Theology; chitecture, Algebra, Mythology, Cosmography. &c. in learning, that all my I took such a delight but this Masters were pleased with my conduct; did not last long; for onc evening the Dircctog ess, French and English; Anscape: Dancing, both Literature, Declacient History, Chronology, Structurc, Poesy, Rhe: mation, Fortification, Natural History, Geometoric, Philosophy, Statics, Fentry, Geography, Trigonometry, Exercise, Natation, Ar: cings Riding, Military Theology; chitecture, Algebra, Mythology, Cosmography. &c. in learning, that all my I took such a delight but this Masters were pleased with my conduct; did not last long; for onc evening the Dircctog --- Page 20 --- ((3164), ofthe Colleze. called,me and said, 66 here is a letter. from my Brothers, antl 66 I havejust reccived. $) On your Mother that I saw thesc words. opening the letter My moft beloued Children, itis tuith gricf and forrow, that I took the pen lo inform you ofallehe misfortunes which have defreyed Si. your forlunc * is lofejor CUCT, it is only Doningo; in your Education, that you wvill be able to recover it: 727 longlence zwould perhaps make you think e. hat 1 have perifhed among/o many. Victimslich W ere defroyed in that unhaply Hand, no!.the 1O RD was pleafed to fave me from fo: many that I might be ufoful Lagain to you : and Ihope dangers, thas by. his Alighuy Power, He zuill reflore yoil to the before ofe. languifing Mother, again arms are sohofe alvays ogen to receive your. iender emdraces, My dear Children, I can hardly. hold pen to inform, yoz oftle gloomy and my bolle unhappy endof your Sifters; they are no more ! poifon has fut then anlo the grave : for all the fprings and wvells were poifoned, by whichperifed many others also. Your : Uncle and Aunt,: P.- zvitls : their, Children, in number thirteen, had their heads cut of upon a block in lefs than. half-an-hour. Your Uncle V- was cut to pieces 44p022 an hedge t. d greai many of your relations' I nced not m2C72ti07, perifhedin the mofl cruel manner: the mag- * Behold, He taketh away, who can hinder him? who will say + unto him, what doest thiou? Job: chap. 9. ver. 12. Peing Persued by the Negroes, and as he ivas over an hedge, his Horse alightest; where the Barbarous escaping Ne groes cut him in small pieccs yith their Swords, pieces 44p022 an hedge t. d greai many of your relations' I nced not m2C72ti07, perifhedin the mofl cruel manner: the mag- * Behold, He taketh away, who can hinder him? who will say + unto him, what doest thiou? Job: chap. 9. ver. 12. Peing Persued by the Negroes, and as he ivas over an hedge, his Horse alightest; where the Barbarous escaping Ne groes cut him in small pieccs yith their Swords, --- Page 21 --- nificent City of du Cap-Francais is lurnt afhes by the Negroes; n0 more dozn to Adicu, ddicu, adieu; Jor the prefens dren, Adicu. M. L. F. TLy M. poor L. unfortinaie ChilAfter reading this said unto us, emy dear little letter, the Director ely sorry for all friends, I am 66 more sO, that I your misfortines, and deep- still 66 of the am but obliged to send you, out 66 mit mc College, to kecp my means., do not 6c ready you any longer, you must per66 bear the against to morrow I shall be Bordeaux: charges ofyour Travel morning, fom 46 that : here is a, Jetter for hence to. you are to deliver soon after your Banker, thither." your arrival than Never was a scntence more this; torrents oft tears fell, dreadful to me my "Heart was almost broken: I from my cyes; deplorable situation was in such a dings that I thought I concerning should these sad tithe returning of the never be able to see ness hung upon Day. Clouds of Gloomirest was to be found, my mind; all the night long no and was forced to risc neither in mind or body; We begun our up, as Ilayed me down. went as far as journey in a coach and a Boat, and finished Toulouje, a City, where-we took arrived safc at Bordeaix. our voyage by water, and, Banker, and were received We went to our with During our residence great kindness. cious cruelty was exercised there, the most atrothe Town * ; Blood was upon the people of daily shed by those bar- : Alluding to the French Revolution C --- Page 22 --- (18) barous race of.Human kind, who cry down vernment: nôthing was scen but terror Go: and abomination; the innocent Blood was continually running under the fatal strokc ofthe Guil: lotine,. and every branch of Royalty was to bc destroyed: being afraid that we should be apprehended; we were putat an old Dutch man's house not far from our Bankers: Wo: wvc enjoyed some little comfort, being thicre retired from the World. She bcing a quite (and cur Danker likezise,)she used to protestant, tS with a deal of'conversation about entertain ahd shewed us'ail the errors of CHRIST, this did not enter into my mind, Popcry; because butall I always thinking about my unfortunate fate.. was Brothers used to go with her to Chapel, which My was just by the house; but as for me I was SO anhappy, that I never could constrain myself to 14 go; though she uscd to say, éyour ethat you have lost, will be found there, happiness ecould takc upon yourself to go: : ?" but all ifyon this was quite new to me, and I gavé but very little attention to it." I remained with her till GOD was pleascd to put a stop to the sheding ofblood. About that time I heard that my Aunt V was arrived in Town; - I hurried mysclf ta go and sce her:. and found that she was mnarried again, and to' a stranger, who reccived me'with the' 'greatest kindness. He bcing a man that followed the Tobacco business, made a to our Banker that we should stay with as being near - IPe relations to us, which, was casily granted: and we began to work- with him in was pleascd to put a stop to the sheding ofblood. About that time I heard that my Aunt V was arrived in Town; - I hurried mysclf ta go and sce her:. and found that she was mnarried again, and to' a stranger, who reccived me'with the' 'greatest kindness. He bcing a man that followed the Tobacco business, made a to our Banker that we should stay with as being near - IPe relations to us, which, was casily granted: and we began to work- with him in --- Page 23 --- (19) ) dcal of business. - At first he shewed-us a bis vanished away, for he kindness, but it soon against becamc a tyrant to us, especially a time 2 Iwent to mc who was the youngest: many I wanted all the bed with a hungry hardly belly; clothes to put on my necessaries oflife, shamefully; I was the greatest slave back, beaten for I used to go to work as soon that ever lived, work till midnight: many a asit was light, and and tircd, that I usedto time I was sO harassed and awoke in the fall asleep at my work, slavery, I was'so samc place to begin again my that I resolreditorun tired ofthat course ofife, and went to my Banaccordingly I did, away; ; but my pretended Uncle ker for protection; and told him not to, knowing of it, came that I was a Child and listen to what I said, he said unto him, wanted correction. But they arei & those Children are not yours, will not, c under my carc, and for that reason'1 manner; ehave them treated'in such a cruel live I cver let them 80 to sand am sorTy but for the future I hope you will <with you; that he would. 63 behave better." : He promised of.clothes which: My Banker bought me a suit barbarous TyItook with me, and followed my more reserrant. When at home he appeared in bis disbut for all that, Icould perceive vC, face that he still bore a hatred against sembled for he soon began mc. I was not mistaken, threatened to flog me. I again with mc, and flieci from my chair in a passion rose up and said to him; c: I am nothing with despair, with you; that he would. 63 behave better." : He promised of.clothes which: My Banker bought me a suit barbarous TyItook with me, and followed my more reserrant. When at home he appeared in bis disbut for all that, Icould perceive vC, face that he still bore a hatred against sembled for he soon began mc. I was not mistaken, threatened to flog me. I again with mc, and flieci from my chair in a passion rose up and said to him; c: I am nothing with despair, --- Page 24 --- (20) 66 to you, neither Child 66 you thus ill usc me? or relation, why should 65 now mixed ifmy poor Father who is 66 have takcn among the dust wasa alivc, he would 66 abused thus my such part, and not suffered me to be by a - Wretch as you * 91 Rascally and are e beggar, yile passion, that he did not know He flew into such a Devil which was SO what to do; till the to powerful in him, dispatch me to the other World, excited him pose hc seized a long knife + For thai purrun towards me to which was by, and but sceing him perpetrate his atrocious décd; ran under the coming with such vehemence, I and fell all his table, by which he missed bis aim length mean time both upon the floor: in the back and my Brothers werc assisted jumped upon his to take the abominable by my Cousin and others, He wasin such a wcapon out ofhis hands. he frothed like rage when he was set a wild beast. I 1 took free, that nity while the of they werc with him, to fetch opportu-. my clothes which was in the a few. where he was, and room next to that sence with coming again before his my bundle under preBrothers follow my arm, I me, Jet this said, live by himself;" then I run miscrable Savage went to my Bankcr, and from the spot and gave him an account of * This was the first time I but the rentembrance of ever dar'd to contend with him, mc such a violent spirit, my that Father I and former state rose in Glemny tone of voice, that all spoke to him with such a not help but pity my situation. those Chat were present could Isaiah + No weapon that is formed chap, 54. ver. 17. against thec shall prosper, --- Page 25 --- (21) every thing that had passed. He was to hear it, but said, sthere is a sorry 6 is going to Guadeloupe in the Ship that 66 will send you there as soon as West-Indies, I 6; therc you will perhaps find possible: when an opportunity to sjoin your Mother." IVe were made ready for our that was to take place in a few days; voyage our Banker gave us a draught for one hundred a marchant in Guadeloupe. Dollars, on We took leave of him, and thanked him for the care he had taken of us our sidence in that during reCountry. We began our voyage with a fair gale of wind, but it soon altered, and we were obliged to cast at the mouth of the River, and remained Anchor: till the weather was fair: the eleventh there the weathcr and wind favorable day secing. we no Anchor, sooner. were we under weighed there rose such a yiolent that sail, but tempest, we our endeavours would have been without thought cess; for we were surrounded by dreadful sucand the Sea roared with such rocks, it filled our Ship almost with impetuosity, that Ship that was close water. Another by us, was alrcady dashed to pieces against the rocks. Never was a more Gloomy, and cutting than for scene had seventy Women and Children this; we on board, which put Terror into passengers 1 nothing was beard but cries and every Heart: werc in such great dangers that Prayers. We strength to work, and we left the no one had mércy, expecting Ship to GOD's every minute to share the same rocks, it filled our Ship almost with impetuosity, that Ship that was close water. Another by us, was alrcady dashed to pieces against the rocks. Never was a more Gloomy, and cutting than for scene had seventy Women and Children this; we on board, which put Terror into passengers 1 nothing was beard but cries and every Heart: werc in such great dangers that Prayers. We strength to work, and we left the no one had mércy, expecting Ship to GOD's every minute to share the same --- Page 26 --- (22) fate as the other Vessel had. The most affecs ting was to be seen, evcry soul upon 8er deck, calling and exalting prostrated for GOD's merciful their voices young Man who was protcction; till at last a a Passenger* started taking the helm, said, "my Friends do up and espair, I will be bound to take not deseger, revive you out ofdanéwe shall your spirits, and help mc says soon get frec from the rocks, >> . So he, We did, and were relievd from frightful rocks. But for all that perishing the amongst sed not, for it continued six and wind appeagrcat violence, thirty days with to be buried for very often We were near cverin the Bowels of the at last we had fair wcather and wind Sea; ceed on our voyage, and arrived safe to proIsland of at the Guadeloupe at the ènd of fifty-six After we were Landed, my Brothers and days. self went to the Governor for a my. and join our Mother who pass, to go was in the United. Slalei-af-America; but the answer he made was this, Sthe Republic is a us 66 besides that, the Island is good Mother, 66 want Soldiers." As besieged, and we: we could not we went to scek for the Merchant get that a pass, draught was drawn upon, and having found the we offered him the bill which he took and him, ed us generously. payMy eldest Brother being a young man grown up, he made him a proposal to stay with him *" "Fhis passenger was a Captain which understood vigable part of the river, the Na- --- Page 27 --- (23) and said that he would satisfy him as a Clerk, bis behaviour: my Brother acceptaccording to willingly. As for me and cd his kind offer being too young for any. my other Brother, to an kind of business, wC were with recoimended much humanity; old Lady who received for us six months or therefor she maintained us time I began to tire ofbeing abouts. In the mcan my old and accquainted without employ, which was to benefactress of my disposition, she the Sea and learn to be a Sca-man; 80 upon resolution, I will rCsaid, sif that is your that I know;" acc: commend you to a Captain on board ofa cordingly she did, and I went Clerk's Privatcer as a cabin boy: and a SO place we for my other Brother; was provided of Life in the like manner began our course rank being a cabin boy as as it is described. My to clean the chamber,* before mentioned, I was thc deck twice a day. iash the dishes, and sweep Anchor and went a We weighed the while before we took Cruizing: we werc a long we saw a Ship, at last, one morning any prize; we. chased her, but all our cnand immediately for we could not deavours were without sailed success, all therday long; and attain her though we the we were when night was, coming on Ship back towards chasing tacked about and sailed and and when near enough she fired a gun, Huc signal to know what Nation we were; but we did not answer the signal, supposing * Called in Sea terms a Cabin, took Cruizing: we werc a long we saw a Ship, at last, one morning any prize; we. chased her, but all our cnand immediately for we could not deavours were without sailed success, all therday long; and attain her though we the we were when night was, coming on Ship back towards chasing tacked about and sailed and and when near enough she fired a gun, Huc signal to know what Nation we were; but we did not answer the signal, supposing * Called in Sea terms a Cabin, --- Page 28 --- () shc was an English Sloop of pared for the conflict. The war: sO We pres Wc did not answer their éncmy seeing that any longer but we signal, did not doubt théy cainc as near as they were enemics to them ; SO side: as WC were ready for could, and fired a broad like. manner; and the them, We returned in with courage and engagement took place fought for a obstinacy on both sides; and long space of timne knowing what Nation we were without though we guessed it was fighting with, were not sure of it. At length English, of but we opportunity offered itself; we hailed her tithe an glish, but no answer, in French, in EnSpanish, and yet no no answer, in SO: we did not know answer was to be had; mysterious silence, what to think of their again with We renewed the Battle grcat courage andattempted three timcs to Boldness, and but she always avoided jump on'board of her; enraged, that they it: our people were SO er die! than let her unanimously cried out, soonons on both sides, from go. We fought Jike Linight, at which time seven o'Clock till midboard our a misfortune happened on Ship; a box powder blew up, and set fillofcartridges the and gunput disorder Ship on firc, which among our mèn. The joyful to see that spectacle, ( enemy, begun to shout (Uanghedrendfad,) aloud, . Huzza! thinking that we should soon be Huzza! were mistaken; our brave tleirs, but they Ainerican, soon put the Captain, fire who was an mattresscs and blaukets into the out, by dipping Sca, and then --- Page 29 --- (a5) it in that manner. We begun quenched the Victory till one o'Clock; agein to dispute being tired at that time, we took and cach side ofabout half-an-hour; and coming again a pause the enemy hailed us, sah! says to action, we will be more well, polite our Captain, were 66 than them, for we will answer though they G not willing to do it when we hailed them." Accordingly we answered that we were come from Denerara:* the enemy was SO exasperated at the answer, that they answered back by saying, 66 you and renewed again the batare a Daes,d Liar,t the tle with great anger and intrepidity; bravery was equal on each part; our deck was covered with Blood and Dead Bodies; all our rigging was cut off by the bullets; our Bowsprit, and Forc-top-mast were cut down: the enemy seemed to be very much damaged, for their Fore-mast and main-top-mast, with their Bowsprit, were cut down. We were SO tired and disordered, that we were forced to retire on both sides, afof nine hours, which was from seter a conflict till four o'Clock in the morningven at night to reAfter an hour of rest, we were employed * Though we did not come from that place, we deceive applyed them the and untruth as you see above, only that we might deal less pass for an English Ship; for our Ship was a great both then theirs: besides that we were much damaged, by the Sea, and by Fighting. from Demerara themselves, and they +7 They were come of in that Harbour. We knew that there was no Ship war heardl alter that the name ofthe Ship was the Pelican, ,andcarried eighteen Gunsofnine Pounders, which were a great advantage ever us, who carried but twelve Guns of four Pounders, D untruth as you see above, only that we might deal less pass for an English Ship; for our Ship was a great both then theirs: besides that we were much damaged, by the Sea, and by Fighting. from Demerara themselves, and they +7 They were come of in that Harbour. We knew that there was no Ship war heardl alter that the name ofthe Ship was the Pelican, ,andcarried eighteen Gunsofnine Pounders, which were a great advantage ever us, who carried but twelve Guns of four Pounders, D --- Page 30 --- (26) pair the damages we had reccived, into harbour; for we were in t00 and, return stay at Sca any'longer. On bad a state to we had the good luck to'také our journcy back came from Africa laden with two prizes, one other which was Negroes, and the Norway, loaded with retaken, was come, from bles &c. We gin, butter, and combustiPoint-a-Pitre arrived safc in the harbour of in Guadelouge. I went to sce my Brothers as soon as I landed; the cldest was removed to another was where he thought he could do. place thc other took example from better, and me, for he was just going out, ofthe - In a few weeks Harbour when I entered in. our Ship was entircly ed, and we ventured again the repairour design was to go a cruizing upon. upon the Sea; af Brazil to meet with some rich Portuguese coast Ship. We stcered'our course for the ed place, and mnct with a : dea! of appointwind, and bad weather; but all this did coptrary not dis. cotrage us, for we proceeded on our way with chcerfiiness, and now and then a glass foidiive away the care of past sorrows * ofgrog One day about noon we saw a Ship, and chased her, WC continued the chase' instantly till at night before we very E when - could come up to her, néar we hailed, but she to dutch vessel, proved bea welefther to whichdiseppointed us very much: so procecd on hety voyage becausc wercnot at war with us. We likewise went further they * Tiis is a real Mariners principle, --- Page 31 --- I 2 27). and were' a considerable time upon the Sca; on, WC begun to precievé that our protili at length short, and being a great numbervisions ofmiles Nere from the shorc, we were alraid ofbeing starv'd with hunger; SO we made haste to the ncarest" land if possible, before weshould en-, perish ofsuch 2 languishing and hard death, tirely with hunger and thirst: for we were perishing to be forced to come, cvcry moient horrible we expected and shocking point of catto that most and become cannibals for want ing Human Hesh, weak that could of food. Many were SO where they not work, nor get up from the place that awful they and lay. We were several days in situation, exposed to all sorts of dangers pitiful and evils; in the most painful of my agonies I - swore that if GOD spared me to put my: foct Land, I would never go to Sca again. upon Atlast the LORD smiled on us, and spared us once more: a sea-man who was watching at theLand! Land*. top of the mast, shouted, than that Never wasjoy greaterin our Hearts and day, to scc ourselves set free from dangers, safely landed at, that most desirable and ap-, place; and found; that it was Cayer pointed near souih Ainerica. on shore to. The Doctor went immediately and ordered that provide food and refreshment, without his orders;, no one should cat any thing because, he said, 46 some will not be wise cnough *In thmine he shall Redeem thee from Death. Jobchap. 5. ver. 20. shouted, than that Never wasjoy greaterin our Hearts and day, to scc ourselves set free from dangers, safely landed at, that most desirable and ap-, place; and found; that it was Cayer pointed near souih Ainerica. on shore to. The Doctor went immediately and ordered that provide food and refreshment, without his orders;, no one should cat any thing because, he said, 46 some will not be wise cnough *In thmine he shall Redeem thee from Death. Jobchap. 5. ver. 20. --- Page 32 --- (28) eto content themselves with a 66 bodies which have bcen void littie, and if our 66 were filled all at for SO long a time once, it would cause our Death." So we were fed undoubtedly untill we recovered our former by degrecs remained at Cayen about two strength. We months, and then departed to go back to Guadeloupe. I was again hardened, and broke the that I had made to GOD, Oath the Sea. About the by going again upon on the Sea ive cighteenth day that we were in thc saw a Ship, and chased mcan time that we were her; wcre prepared for the battle: and chasing, the arms of Voluntcers called mc to take Captain arms which were care of the down upon a large box; SO I knecled and,clip'd a great quantity of and muskets to prevent them from pistols theirmouths falling, and all were fixed towards my.breast. Not Iong beforc I was in that posture, the who was below called me; I instantly Doctor my post and ran to his orders: no sooncr quitted I left my position in which I was before, than had pistol went off unexpected, and wounded the a Captain of Voluntcers in the knee. I was SO surprised at this, that I thought, fure, ) that it was GOD's (and even was fori in the posture that I was mercy to spare me; I could not have as before mentioned, * escaped being killed e spot upon the *He shall deliver thee in six shall no evil touch thce, In famine troubles; He shall yea, in seven there Death; and in war from the Redeem thee from 5. ver. 19 & 20, power ofthe.sword. Job chap. --- Page 33 --- (:89 a ) The Ship that WC were chasing, when near to be a large man of war, and we proved small to attack her, were forced being too escaped. to run away, and happily of Volunteers, whose I return, to the Captain that he was obliged wound made such a progress of his thigh cut off; - to have his leg, and a part assisted to and I, being assistant to the Doctor, the hold his leg while he was performing his life many operation: all that did not prolong for his time was come; he departed cight days, days after the amputation. for Guadeloupe, We proceeded on our voyage safe there. Having had SO many and arrived that the Ship was unlucky, misfortunes I thought with SO I asked and resolved to go no more it; but before I. for my discharge, and it was granted; about my sought for another place, I'inquired and venture Brother who did take pattern by me, for to Sea: I heard that he had had good luck, he had received fifty pounds prize money. still, but My eldest Brother was in his place misfortune happened unto him while I was On a shore; the Gentleman and the Lady where he were at variance on his account, for his was at; of him, and he was Master was jealous having nothing to do, he obliged to quit; and embarkdétermined to follow our example; ed in the samc Ship where my other Brother à wanted me to go with them, saying, was; they in the arms of 66 if we perish, we shall perish luck, we can s'each other, and ifwe have good butI could 6 work and live together in union:" was On a shore; the Gentleman and the Lady where he were at variance on his account, for his was at; of him, and he was Master was jealous having nothing to do, he obliged to quit; and embarkdétermined to follow our example; ed in the samc Ship where my other Brother à wanted me to go with them, saying, was; they in the arms of 66 if we perish, we shall perish luck, we can s'each other, and ifwe have good butI could 6 work and live together in union:" --- Page 34 --- 30) not be persuaded, I wanted to for I Khew that it was havemy own way, own micfortunes, without enough for mc to bear my Brothers: SO they both tock adding to those ofimy werit to seck their fortune. leave of me, and - 2 Afew wecks after their on board of a small departure I embarked" two swivels, and Privatcer, carrying caly and cast Anchor at the seventeen Island men: We sailed to take some provisions; of Marie-Ga'snte, Séa. Soon andugain went out for Merchant-Man; after, we inet with a -large glish colour to deceive passing by we hoisted an Enboard thar could her, and having men on perfectly speak the English Martinico well, We hailed her; she wais come Language and going to from tcen guns: our Captain England, said and had four- <cthat we are English, but to us, ethey think sand when night let her sail on, SO we followed her comes we will attack: her:" come to perform the ata distance, till thc time was near all was silent, and intrepid design; * coming were-r ready to jump on board every onc" ofour Men and when near enough at the first signal; our wishes fulliled; for orders were Given, and little we took her with resistance, and conteyed her to very Dutch Island. The consisted Curacao, a dred and ffty-four cargo offive-hundinto of Colfee, and hogsheads-of Sugar, twelve which when sold eighteen balcs of Cotton; teen hundred doilars. gave cvery one a prize of fourIsoon spent a great Being yeung and foolish,, comrades, in driuking, part ofmy Money with my. . dancing, Gambling, &c, --- Page 35 --- C31) sometimes intoxiçated for a whole week, a Iwas at the ball room, along with bad and every night months in Curacao, and company. I was two dollars; after which five-hundred and forty spent which was.reawe proceeded with a larger Ship, better fordy for Sea, in which we sought for a another tune. A few days after we were out, the fell into our hands, which we sent; to prize and proceeded on our place above mentioned; a dutch Island, Voyage, and went to Bonaires, refreshment. After we quited to take some that our Ship had a lcak, that place, we perceived inches of water in the hold for we had fourteen which forced us to enter into the every hour, City Harbour of Porto-Cabello, a large 'Spanish the coast of the Meridional America: we on there tw.o-1 months; and procceding further, were a Spanish we cast Anchor at Cocoa-madrillas Town on the same coast asi before mentioned, remained therc but a few days: we went out and cruized for a long while, and having captuand we went into the harbour ofla Giaired no Ships City, to take some proviTCS, another Spanish short of them. sion, for we. were there the Lieutenant of During our stay went to take a walk 1 the Ship and two men and in the on shore, and were taken up, bow put to the inquisition, because they did not HOST: for as it was related to us by them, that when they were passing through the streets ofClergy men, going. they saw a great procession the, Extremewith a large silver Cross, to give the not knowing Unction to a sick person; they proviTCS, another Spanish short of them. sion, for we. were there the Lieutenant of During our stay went to take a walk 1 the Ship and two men and in the on shore, and were taken up, bow put to the inquisition, because they did not HOST: for as it was related to us by them, that when they were passing through the streets ofClergy men, going. they saw a great procession the, Extremewith a large silver Cross, to give the not knowing Unction to a sick person; they --- Page 36 --- (32) ) rules of the Country, passed and notice: . when they were examined, by, took no under French and found do colours, the inquisitioner could nothing at them, but - We went out ofthat abominable release them. the design to go back to the Harbour with Guadeloupe. liappy Island of On our way back we took two were retaken prizes, but chor at St. again; SO we went and cast Anand Martin, a French and Dutch were but a few days there; and Island, we sailed for Bafe-Terre the strightways Guadeloupe, and from thence Capital City of wherc I Landed little to Point-a-Pitre, ted of one hundred my and treasure which'consis. I had a Cousin there who twenty pounds; as deposited the was a sober man, I small trade; money in his hands to a and I was determined begin on the Sea for a long while, not to go my money would suffice as I thought decent. me to live in a begin manncr; when I was just to trade, my Cousin was taken going the putrid feyer, and was in very ill of life. Onc day he called great dangerd ofhis mc, ( he was then ill,) and said, 66 I have lent the very 66] have deposited in money that you I said, my hands, to Mrs. Pero what very well, you are wise enough to' know you do? he said do not fear, the is in good hands. I did not care much money him lending my money, because I knew that about he : lodg'd, * She kept a linen drapery shop where he boarded and --- Page 37 --- (33 ) was too good to do me any injurys but growing and I began to be afraid; worse every day, whether was going to speak to him to inquire I had Mrs. Pero given him a receipt or not, her, saying, she wants was prevented by must not disturb him." 66 some repose and you she would She knew too well the matter, or have me speaking to my Cousin: not prevented in his room for she was nights and days watching fear I should speak to him. I had no wit: whether she had given him ness who could testify in mind a reccipt or not: and was SO tormented till about it, that I did not know what to do, when I resolved I saw he was - dying, where his trunk to go into the next chamber find and look in to it if I could any was, concerning my money: at the time paper into - the box, she came in, I was looking a ands said, G6 whatareyoul looking for?" receipt Madam ? she knew then what I meant; I said, and said, 66 do not be afraid, I have got your have it back wheG6 money, and you shall again, 66 ther your Cousin live or die." I was a little reconciled by wbat she said, but she took care that no one was present when she said it: and the day after my Cousin breath'd his Jast. much affected at the Death I was very and went in the Country of SO near a relation, when I for a month to alleviate my sorrows: for returned to Town, I went and asked her money, that 1 wanted it to begin some my, business: she said I will satisfy your request. And went to her desk, she brought me five and E live or die." I was a little reconciled by wbat she said, but she took care that no one was present when she said it: and the day after my Cousin breath'd his Jast. much affected at the Death I was very and went in the Country of SO near a relation, when I for a month to alleviate my sorrows: for returned to Town, I went and asked her money, that 1 wanted it to begin some my, business: she said I will satisfy your request. And went to her desk, she brought me five and E --- Page 38 --- (34) twehty Portugueses * which she'laid ion the saying, 46 this is the remainder of tabic, 6c hcre is a bill + of what I your moncy, have paid for your Cousin." I took the bill and read it: there was SO much for physic, and the Doctor's trouble, for board and for the funeral, and for goods of different lodging, sorts. &c. It was the most shameful bill Iever saw; I began to fly into a 66 this bill does not concern me passion, at all, saying E am besides, not compelled to pay the debis of my Cousin". She then began to grin, ing, sif you are SO impudent and sayGG shall have insolent you nothing, at all, because I am rant whether the money was yours." 2 Iwas igno- sO irritated that I thought my anger would have choaked me, I did not know what to do, hav. ing neither attestation nor reccipt; SO I was forccd with grcat reluctance to take the five and twenty Portugueses, and to Icave the rest to her. With the little I had I bought some and went to St. Croix, an Island goods, the Danes, where I sold my littie belonging Cargo, and to got double of my money: and aftcr I had settled my business there, Iwent to St. Thomas, an Island beionging to the same, and thcre I purchased some other goods to go back to Guadeloupe, when there, I sold them for three times as much as they cost me: fortune smiled on ic, I took courage, seeing and * A Gold coin worth thirty-six shillings. did + it was a forged one 2s I heard after, as. ihe nct charge any thing for his troublc. Doctor --- Page 39 --- (35) goods with all the money I was worth 3 bought well enough in health to undertake but not being a friend with my business : the voyage, I trusted and sold the goods he went to St. Thomas and again, some others were purat a very good price, when only thiee miles chased for to return; where he was toland, he was irom the Earbour which ruined me totally. taken by the enemy; threc-hundred Pounds, I was then worth nearly but all was lost. look for another kind ofbuI now began to by some of siness, and was recommeaded ) to be Z friends to a Gentleman, ( a planicr, but Clerk, and to look over his plantation; remain there, though I performed did not zeal, long and was loved as their own my duty with I could not be child; the reason was, though I knew it happy from the Sca, Masdangerous. Iacquainted my was very thoughts; he told me to go and try ter of my and ifI had not good luck to come back again,, for he, 6 my house shall always be to him; says I took leave ofhim, and 66 open for you." my secking afwent again upon the roaring Occan, we ter the fortune ofthis World: on our way cast anchor at Desirada, an Island not farfrom and stay'd there only a few days. Guadeloupe, from the Island forementionAfter we departed time without seeing any vessci, ed, we were some which we but one morning we saw a large Ship, we soon perceived was an English Frigates make lost no time, but put all'the sails oui to if We were almost out our escape possible, 66 open for you." my secking afwent again upon the roaring Occan, we ter the fortune ofthis World: on our way cast anchor at Desirada, an Island not farfrom and stay'd there only a few days. Guadeloupe, from the Island forementionAfter we departed time without seeing any vessci, ed, we were some which we but one morning we saw a large Ship, we soon perceived was an English Frigates make lost no time, but put all'the sails oui to if We were almost out our escape possible, --- Page 40 --- (36) of sight-of the encmy, when the fortune happened unto greatest mismuch loaded with sails, us; our mast being too and the wind very high, by which cause the mast being fell down. Having neither broke, and to effect our escape, we were mnast nor sails where we was, and were taken obliged to stay were well treated by the prisoners. while We on board their Ship; enemy and we stayed Janded at the Island of Martinico, were and afterwards close confinement in a prison put under first tine I ever was confined, Ship. I Being the to a gulfof despair and grief; was plunged inscheming how I should make cvery day I was last I found a way for my escapc, till at by resolution, my purpose; and guided schemc. It was determined to fullil was the ninth day after my confine. my ment, when I, and two others escaped from son, by breaking an iron bar which fastened pri- the pori-hole, and lcting ourselves down into Sea by the means ofa we the halfa mile before we could rope: swam about having gained the Jand, I reach the shore; which consisted of wrung my clothes, only a shirt. and we began our journey through a trousers; of rain, and when passing through the great shower sentry called? we town, the. as we could for fear inmediately ran away as fast the thirdofour band ofbeing taken again; but being left bchind, was taken again; and I, and my comrade on through brambles and briers all the proceeded and when the sun wàs nightlong; beams upon the surface beginning of the to spread its Earth, wC enter- ung my clothes, only a shirt. and we began our journey through a trousers; of rain, and when passing through the great shower sentry called? we town, the. as we could for fear inmediately ran away as fast the thirdofour band ofbeing taken again; but being left bchind, was taken again; and I, and my comrade on through brambles and briers all the proceeded and when the sun wàs nightlong; beams upon the surface beginning of the to spread its Earth, wC enter- --- Page 41 --- (37 ) ed into a thickct to hide ourselves, and take a litde rest: while I rested myself my comrade watched, and SO O: by turns till the approach of night, which enabled us to pursue our way through its gloomy shadow. and hunBeing excessively harassed by fatigue we endeavoured to see whether we could ger, find some wild fruit to satisfy our inward wants, but all our cfforts were in vain, for nothing was to be found through the darkness of the night; and as morning was coming on we retired to an adjacent wood. In the apace, pitiful and perishing situation in which we were, I could not help but lament my deplorable fate and condition; when on a sudden I felt for the first time, a glimpse ofthe love of GOD, and many idcas came into my mind such as this? rely on GOD, and He will help thee, and stand by thec. With all these thoughts I fell upon knees, and began to pray in the midst of my the wood, saying, as well as Icould. 66 Now, O! GOD that I am in distress I call thy power and goodness, because I know 66 Rcrt there is no other that can alleviate my 66 pain but thou. O! GOD, though I am 1n1 66 trouble, yet I fecl that it is good for me to 66 be sO, for I have a comforter to fly to 5 66 but forgive me that I have liv'd SO loag wi66 thout doing the duty which I ought to have 66 done towards thee, for it was nothing else but G6 the pleasures of this perverse World which 66 banished me from thee, and my misery and $ trouble has drawn me near unto thee : do help --- Page 42 --- (38) c-me, and guide my I 6 dangers, and stepsthat may fall into no 6 where I bring me safe back to the land come from; and with thy GOD, I vow to serve help O! 66 knowledge all the thee according to my 6s Earth, and days of my life here on 65 time shall be hope to praise thee above when no more." AMEN. Idid not quit my position till I full assurance that GOD would thought I had der all my troubles and trials. protect me unAs night was drawing nocturnal nigh, we began our journey as usual. Two and nights were gone without days food or rest; when having tasted either lage, an old Woman who passing thirough a Vildoor of her house, called was sitting before the whether I should us: I did not know to the comrade of go or not, but I said and see what she wants. my misfortunes, let us'go she said, SI know Coming near to her, 6S serters from my friends that you are de66 do prison? be not afraid I will you no harm, 65 self, for Son is knowing what it is my46 my and a prisoner in a French Country, I shouid not 66 should ill use him if he like that any one 66 as you are now.". She was in the same case many subjects concerning the questioned us upon and at last she said, 46 I think state of her Son, ssting offood since left you must be waned that for two you prison?" I answerdays we had not had any:: immediately she went into the beckoned uts to foilow her. housc, and she Being in the house told us to sit down, while she dressed French Country, I shouid not 66 should ill use him if he like that any one 66 as you are now.". She was in the same case many subjects concerning the questioned us upon and at last she said, 46 I think state of her Son, ssting offood since left you must be waned that for two you prison?" I answerdays we had not had any:: immediately she went into the beckoned uts to foilow her. housc, and she Being in the house told us to sit down, while she dressed --- Page 43 --- (39) which she did with great dexterity: somc mcat, the same to tIS, I said, OGOD! and presenting been to provide food 66 since thou hast pleased thee bless it. we beseech 68 for tis this night, AMEN. 66 with thine own power and.will." much to The old Woman was had pleased satisfied hear what I had said; and after we meat wants, she gave us some more our and shewed us the road tied up in a cloth, Town: we thanked her: that led to St. Pcter's on our march forall her Kindness, and proceeded which forced all the night long until morning, thicket or wood: us as usual to retire into GOD some for having preserthere I began to thank till the present ved us from dangers and pursuits the cloth which conmoment; I then took spread it, Icalled tained our provision: having comrade COD to give his blessing, My think upon < pray too much, do you said, you takes notice of what you say?" 66 that GOD ifHe did not take notice surely said I, because, asked him, He would not of what I said and call for us: well says he, have provided but bad will nothing Ttoer nonsense bring ourselves, I tied up After we had refreshed ofour food, and said to carefully the remainder I will ify you desire to take a little rest, him, the mean time: he did sO, and when watch in further and rested asleep, I went a few yards were the best reprayers, for they myselfin could take; after my duty freshment I ever and full of an unwas performed, I was casy. describe. known joy which I could not --- Page 44 --- (40) Some time after my comrade me to rest. myscif and he got up and tole - turn; but I told him that I would watch his it would bc better was not wearicd, and whether to search the wood, to see. we could find any fruit; he my proposal, and we went agreed with provisions, for ours were secking for' some tcr a long while geting very short: af found at last rambliug up and down, we all a grcat quantity of wild fruit of sorts, somc of them were to the tastc; we gathered as much very pleasant carry, and as it was alrcady as we could of the wood and travelled dark, we came out werc sevcral on as usual. We nights and days down in the greatest till rambling up and wc arrived at St.Peter's misery, at last one night comrade Town: there I, and parted. I went on board of an Irish my Ship which was in the Harbour, and he on of another. I was well received board the Ship, but as I was on board of had no refreshment for vcry hungry and having some timc, I told them my situation; and they gave me some was after introduced to the food. I me that I might stay in the Captain, who told the other men: I was about Ship and work with working three weeks on board very hard, and recciving ill ment. Onc day a Negroc came on very treatsome business, and I asked him board about about the pcople of the many questions about two Gentlemen Town, and especially which I one was a Knight, and the other perfectly knew; sent by the Negroe a.few lines a Baronet. I soon as they received to them, and as them, they hurried to come: stay in the Captain, who told the other men: I was about Ship and work with working three weeks on board very hard, and recciving ill ment. Onc day a Negroc came on very treatsome business, and I asked him board about about the pcople of the many questions about two Gentlemen Town, and especially which I one was a Knight, and the other perfectly knew; sent by the Negroe a.few lines a Baronet. I soon as they received to them, and as them, they hurried to come: --- Page 45 --- (41) were struck at the first sight to to sec me: they situation, as they sec mc in such a deplorable but knew my parents, they could not help they told - mourn and pity my miserable which state: I did with me to go with them on shore, of pleasure, though I was ashamed myself great dirty. Arrived at their house I was being very to wash mc, for I had put into a bath for need of it; and clothes were provided believe that me: after I was dress'dI could not it was the unhappy me, when looking at my ragclothes which I had on but a few minutes ged for ago; I was in a perfect state ofhappiness, of life was nothing concerning the necessaries of affluwanting for me. I was in that state ence for three months, and wheresoever they they took me with them, SO that I was acwent, with the best company of the Town: quainted GOD. but for all that I did not forget my Some time after they procured me a passage on board a Ship that was going to St. Thomas: all necessaries, both for lile and body were pravided for me, and ten guincas which they gave me when we parted, also letters of recommendation. We went out of the Harbour and sailed towards Dominica, where we cast Anchor to take and from thence we sailed to some passengers, of the were waitSt. Kits, where a part convoy for some ing for us, after to St. Bartholomew, St. Thoother business, and from thence to mas, where we arrived safe after a good voyage. I went to the Gentlemen for W hom I had F --- Page 46 --- (42) letters of recommendation, and was with great civility and kindness; received took me to his house while I onc of them mas's. The first Sunday I stay'd at St. Thohim and another went to Church with know, and that Gentleman that I did not after same Gentleman said to we came out of < me s: love GOD, Church; I hope you young man?" I said said he, :6 in all your troublcs trast to yes, well, 6 JESUS CHRIST, and the LORD .6 in need off, ask it in.his whatsoever you stand 66 He will it name, and I am sure grant unto for G. through His Blood you, He has promised to make intercession I kindly thanked him for his for us." he withdrew. instruction, and I remaincd at St. Thomas three weeks, and took an opportunity of going to but before I took leave of the Guadeloupe; Gentleman where I was at, I thanked him for all his nees: he said, 66 you arc welcome goodc] longerifyou chuse," Ireturned him to stay saying, I wished to se my 6: thanks C: a purse (says hes) which Guadeloupe. I Hereis ci off; 92 then shook hands with beg your 2cceptance he one way, aud I the other. me, I and retired, went on. board, and in a few minutes immediately were out of sight of the place wlere I reccived much kindness. Ihad a pleasant and short SO age, and safely landed at that most desired voyJand of Guadeloupe. I hasted to see Istances; and having inquired aftcr my-acquainI hcard that they were taken my Brothers, ducted to Plymouth in prisoners, and congreat Britain, 92 then shook hands with beg your 2cceptance he one way, aud I the other. me, I and retired, went on. board, and in a few minutes immediately were out of sight of the place wlere I reccived much kindness. Ihad a pleasant and short SO age, and safely landed at that most desired voyJand of Guadeloupe. I hasted to see Istances; and having inquired aftcr my-acquainI hcard that they were taken my Brothers, ducted to Plymouth in prisoners, and congreat Britain, --- Page 47 --- (43) had do and no desire to go to As I nothing I went again to my late master Sea any morc, to sce mc, and (the Plaxter: ) who was very glad wbich encouraged me by raising my business. wages, made me apply the more to my Maker, I daily As I did not yet forget my him who had been performed my duiy towards master ( OT rather 72y SO gracious unto mc. My in me, friend, ) soon perceived a great attribute change it to; which he did not know what to who at last he knew by some oft the servants Christianiwatched me, that I was in the ways of about some times he used to plague me it, Re fun, but for all that he did not esteem mc the iess. at home, Onc day having some company three weeks that were invited to spend two or with us; I retired as usual after supper to bed, and knelt dowh: at the time I was pouring soul unto GODin prayers, a young lady out my passed by, and secing my chamber inadvertently in; and finding me in door half opcn, stepped she bursted inthe posture as before mentioned, rushed out of the room, to a loud laugh and I had the whole company and in a few minutes of some round mc making all sorts jests, others laughing till they fell down on the floor, others holding their sides with laughing, and such and stamping. &c. it was indeed jumping I never heard before, for it was both a noise as In all that disturbance - a tragedy, and comedy. and did not move from I was as frm as a rock, untill I had fulfilled thie place in which I was, --- Page 48 --- (41). my duty towards my SAVIOUR. jt was very Itold them in unmannerly to disturb me my most precious time: for thus, best delight and comfort, and prayers were my could not rest nor be without them I spread in the happy. The tale soon neighbourhood about devout, * SO that I was persecuted me being a own friends, but as I did not mind daily by my were soon tired, and at last were them, they me be quiet, secing they could obliged to let over me, not get master Three weeks after that scandalous taken very ill, of the putrid and scene, I was threc days after the Doctor malign fever; was SO ill that he thought I gave could me up, for I I was ten days and not recover. and saw wondrous nights senseles; things in the eleventh day I came to myself my agony; and keeper said to me, 66 I again: my 66 enough this time?" I did hope you have prayed meant, but not know what she having asked her the reason she said, all the time I was why; nothing else but senseless, I did pray night and day untill I to my senses again. I was a came I - could recover former long time before my strength as soon.as I was able, Iwent to again; and tben was my business. I melancholy with thinking about my Country, and Mother; as for my Mother Idid not know in what quarter of the she was in; notwithstanding that, I took world my * In England, ifany profess heis thodist, and in France ora any other Christianity, dominions called a methe same, a Devout, appertaining tp my senses again. I was a came I - could recover former long time before my strength as soon.as I was able, Iwent to again; and tben was my business. I melancholy with thinking about my Country, and Mother; as for my Mother Idid not know in what quarter of the she was in; notwithstanding that, I took world my * In England, ifany profess heis thodist, and in France ora any other Christianity, dominions called a methe same, a Devout, appertaining tp --- Page 49 --- (45) and then and wrotc, first, to St. Dameingo, I pen three other places where thought to two or but all was without success, for no most likely, be had. I wrote, and SO answer was to Again without receiving on for about cighteen months made me some how the Icast tidings: which Mother was no more. I think that my poor of mind that my life bewas in such a low state I could not find any comcane a burden to me, and when at fort cither in amusement or prayer; such a delight as I I prayed not with prayer, do: SO that in a short time I quite used to from the path of the truly turned my back CHRIST, and most blessed LORD JESUS and became again as wicked as ever. and said, 6 the One day my master called me, must go and you 66 Negroes are in rebellion, horse and 6. to war and fight." He provided the cavalry arms for mc, and sent me to join distance from that were encamped at a little after I was at the where we lived. Some days into the the Captain ordered me to go some 'camp, I made Town to carry some dispatches; send some others; but excusc, telling him to and must? he said, Kyou are appointed to other." go you I obey66 for I dare not trust any and rode to Town ed and went out ofthe camp, distance from the which was nine or ten miles able to above mentioned; and not being but place I waited till morning: return the same day, at the moment I was what was my greatsurprise to return? an alarm putting my footin the stirrup were murdered that the whole camp was given --- Page 50 --- (46) in the night, * except one who ing on nothing but his shirt. We escaped hav. persons that were being the only other company, and spared, we were put into anagainst the rebels, and marched on the same day aitempts. I was for.three were successful in all our weeks night and fighting, soie times wet through day at other times suffocated with the with rain, and while, I never knew what it heat: all that down or take rest; neither was to lay tunity to put clean linen having an opporreturned into the on: but at last we refreshment and Town, where Wé took some had need ofit. No put clean linen on, for we I was ordered to sooner was I refreshed, but carry ce to a camp nine miles Roncfriemercenequs off; but was very dangerous, I asked as the road comrades to go with me, which he onc did of my great pleasure; we arrived at the with without the least injury or camp not with the same luck danger: but it was we went were passing back, for as we betzeen through a dark Wood, (itwas ten and cleven o'Clock ai then ofmusket balls werc fired at nights) a shower ed noise and us, which hissing, SO much frighted our unexpect- horses, * Oh! reader consider and meditate? see how pleased vine Providence to spare sach a rebelious Creature as I; and GOD how was Di1, with obstinacy didingusheilitserbye refused ito toits calling me alonc, though resist the pewer:ofithe LORD comply when he orders: but who can shail.&:c. "Oh! bless the LORD O says, soul, I will and they "vithin me, bless his, holy name: for my the LORD and all that is srondrons things. He bas lifted ne and has has done emy foos to rejoice over me." up, not made sach a rebelious Creature as I; and GOD how was Di1, with obstinacy didingusheilitserbye refused ito toits calling me alonc, though resist the pewer:ofithe LORD comply when he orders: but who can shail.&:c. "Oh! bless the LORD O says, soul, I will and they "vithin me, bless his, holy name: for my the LORD and all that is srondrons things. He bas lifted ne and has has done emy foos to rejoice over me." up, not made --- Page 51 --- (47 ) for usto lead them; they that it was impossible and briers, and at last rushed through brambles Lake, where we had like plunged into a dead horses being t0 have been drowned; but our the other they swam and gained stout animals, We inade the best ofour side in a few minutes. thickets to escape the way through woods and flying fury of the balls which were continually while about us, and after having wandered a great unpracticable places, we found again through and rode as fasti as we could to the the road. since that affair I have been in many Town: obstinate and bloody engagements. I One day as I was reading the news-paper, heard that St. Domingo was in a state oftranquilat this I was determined to go thither: aclity; I went on board a Ship that was cordingly, there; we went first to St. Thomas, to take going and for my dear Country we some passengers, and arrived safe there. My first inquiry sailed, Mother; I was about two days was my through the streets without hearing any. rambling respecting her or any other relatidings at last I mct with one tions; : till peradventure France at the time I of my Cousins that was in her house and left that Country; she took me tO and told entertained me with loving kindnesses; of me that my Mother was in the Spanish part from St. Domingo, at the distance of sixty miles the place where I then was. Iwould Anxious to see the author ( ofmy days, but she entreated me have set out immediately, with her, to which I to spend a week or two --- Page 52 --- ('48) agreed: we related to each other tunes, and soothed each other's our misfor. in my convérsation I sorrows. Once barbarous and was speaking of that used pretended Uncle of me SO ill when I was in minc, who her whether she knew where he France; I asked that he was in the Town, and was, sbe told me bouse; I was indeed not far from the amazed that was still alive; she told such a wreich some times to me also that he came see her; well, said comes I will be ready for his I, if he no more what I formerly reception, for I am should dread him. was, [a Child, ] that I thatlwasin Two days after, he heard Town, and came to see as he, came into the house, me: as soon struck with horror. He my mind was and asked how I did advanced towards me shake hands with stretching forth his hand to said, Sir, Ido me; I refused my hand and I know not shake hands with not. 66 why (: said he ) people that me?" no Sir! Ireplied: 66 don'tyou know your why J Uncle SP" no Sir! I never dontyou had know nion of that name: any rela66 you lived in France <why with don't you remember am sure I never mep" no Sir! for I did, my mind does saw you before to day, ifI not afford me the recollection ofyour features: 66 how 66 me, who married isityou don't remember 66 lock?" 66 Oh! your Aunt V-in second wedG6 yes I do now you execrable villain; retire from C6 iniquities; think my presence, monster of not that you shall go nished, nor escape the wrath unpu66 sword ofvengeance - of GOD, forthe hangs over your head, and Sir! for I did, my mind does saw you before to day, ifI not afford me the recollection ofyour features: 66 how 66 me, who married isityou don't remember 66 lock?" 66 Oh! your Aunt V-in second wedG6 yes I do now you execrable villain; retire from C6 iniquities; think my presence, monster of not that you shall go nished, nor escape the wrath unpu66 sword ofvengeance - of GOD, forthe hangs over your head, and --- Page 53 --- (a9) <c will crush you to atoms in an unexpected He first blush- time 66 that justice may be satisfied." and without replyed, then became palc, and I saw him' no more ing left the house; was while I tarried there. - My Cousin ofhim; but very as much pleased with my réception I-thought thetime Iagreed with her was expired, leave off going to see my Mother; SO I'took which was ofher and embarked in n a long-boat hours I was going that way: in four and twenty she resided, and landed at Moudechristo where ofher dwellings was not long to find out the place let my reader the Town being small. I will just first, I knock'd know.h how Imade my entrance: Iasked her whether she at the door; whren in, I asked her again knew me; she said no Sir; abroad; she whether she had not Children my said yes, G6 but, [giving a'deep sigh).all between thirfor it' is 66 hopes are' vanished, since I have. seen 66 teen and fourtecn years 2: I then said-to her, bescor) heard from them." them before-you: she exhold the youngest of of CG Oh! my Sonis claimed in a transport joy, is still existing?" 6 it you? my dear H but was not long in that and then fainted: soon called-her to her state, for.her exceedingjoy hard heart was melted in anr senses again. My withstand that filial instant; I could no longer those arms which were love; I thréw myselfinto to welcome me to that SO desirous and eager for me: breast which was SO ardently panting that. neither our joy was SO great ward. on both-sides, Our language was of us. could utter a G --- Page 54 --- (50) only sighs: and those face RLEL my when I precious tears were once more mixed first parted 1-with which terwove in cach other with minc. her, affecting tenderness. as an emblem Ourarms ofthe ined a long timc, In that posture we most affected, that sO much were remainSome time we could not utter a single our feelings little Brother and afterwards, she shewed word. and dispatched Sister, by her second me my Father-in-law who my Brother to go and husband, fetch little distance from the was then at the my she said to me; 66 Town. In the mean farm, a eéman? he is not your an time like Father-in-lavisa true Father that Ihave many others, but he honest then asked me where met with for you;" isa she her they were taken my Brothers were; and prisoners Itold Father-in-law conveyed to England: atthe by the English terrupted came into the same time my our housc, which invery joyful of conversation. He seemed to be with the greatest my arrival, and treated happicst moment I ever kindness. This was the me bosom ofmy friends, enjoyed, being in not last longs for But all this the and killed the Negroes rose happiness did hands. every white man that fell up again; Iwas then into their fence, as a foot compelled to stand in my own de: were given, for the soldier; cvery night, the Town: but blacks were at the alarms they were having received gates of garrison, filtcen repulsed. Afterwards reinforcement, I was miles off; wherelstay'd sent to fourand om ofmy friends, enjoyed, being in not last longs for But all this the and killed the Negroes rose happiness did hands. every white man that fell up again; Iwas then into their fence, as a foot compelled to stand in my own de: were given, for the soldier; cvery night, the Town: but blacks were at the alarms they were having received gates of garrison, filtcen repulsed. Afterwards reinforcement, I was miles off; wherelstay'd sent to fourand --- Page 55 --- (51) return little Brother fell twenty days; at my and died my in two days after; sick of the fever, such Mother and Father-in-lawin which put my that I thought they would have distress of mind, Father-in'law, for he followed, especially my but by dewas'a man of very tender feclings: their griefs were grees and length of time, dispersed. since arrival at Five months were expired my or doMother's. I was daily upon guard, my other things respecting the warfaring ings some One. day being on guard, I was inbusiness. ofboth my Brothers; I formed of the arrival and found it was so; immediately ran home, at the sight of them, my joy, was inexpressible the who was, and always particularly at eldest, intimate friend: it was then has been my most months since they were five years and some that time I never heard taken prisoners; which during made me think many times from them, weré no more in this World, Soon that they oftheir arrival was spread in the after, the report to the cars ofthe commandTown; and coming werc sent for by his orders, cr oft the place, they of foot soland enrolled * them into a company the rebels being daidiers. The duty was hard, there was ly about us, and almost every One night day after a some fighting or attempt. that was fought at the very bloody engagement I was sent thither with the comadvanced post, * May it please GOD to enrol them in and the Royal Honorable Regiment Sona. of Saints, commanded by his most truly the LORD JESUS CHIRIST. --- Page 56 --- (5) pany which I was in to reinforce they should be attacked them; in case four and twenty days, and again: I stay'd there eldest Brother, The day was relieved by my him, and returned into the after I took.lcave of I arrived, my Mother sent Town. As soon as aboutsome business. me to the Metropolis were SO great, that no When there, the troubles theirtives: three one was in safety of battle took days after my. arrival, a strong in the place, and lasted from four o'Clock after I morning till six in the The was occupied in doing evening. the errand day Mother; and as soon as I had for my lelter to her, sending an done, I wrote a siness; and told her she account of all the bureturn, nor must not expect me to her my rcason perhaps was, that see St. me mbre; telling too dangerous for me to remain Domingo was a place and told her not to be in any longer: had already taken uncasy about mc, for I We set out the. shipping, 3d.of De harbour of St, May 1803, from the Doningo: I bid my: Country once more Adieu; distressed itis perhaps the last. thinking to myself My intçntion, when I embarked St. Malo, and take was, to go to Tof Africa. 1 had on shipping board there for the coast sisting of Sugar and Coffec, a small cargo conwould bave which when sold ing to my enabled.me to begin a trade accord. above purpose.. We sicered for the mentioned; six days after we place Sea, we had such a rough wind, that were at obliged to reef our main and fore we were top-sails: itis perhaps the last. thinking to myself My intçntion, when I embarked St. Malo, and take was, to go to Tof Africa. 1 had on shipping board there for the coast sisting of Sugar and Coffec, a small cargo conwould bave which when sold ing to my enabled.me to begin a trade accord. above purpose.. We sicered for the mentioned; six days after we place Sea, we had such a rough wind, that were at obliged to reef our main and fore we were top-sails: --- Page 57 --- (53) all our efforts seemed to be unsuccessful, for we driven amidst dreadful Rocks; and the were redoubled with such violence that winds nothing was seen, beforc our eyes but terrors; we our fatal end to take every moment expected ofdistress from time to time place; we fired guns come hoping that some Ship would hear us and ifthere was any about: but our to ourassistance, in and we were cast in endeavours were vain, cutthe midst- ofthe Rocks. - The scenc is too ting for me to relate it in all its parts, forit was enough to unman the stoutest Sailor: every man was in the most profound consternation; and nothing was seen before our eyes but Death, that in dreadful forms. At évery'instant pieces about the almost of timber were swimming almost the wrecked Ship; the water covered till situation deck. We were in that deplorablc morning; and to our grcatjoy, a Ship offered the itself to our view*; We. immediately put long-boat out to Sea, to go to the Ship for refuge: I flung myself into the boat with what I valucd most, and five other men did likewise. As our boat was too small to carry all the peoplc, several were obliged to remain upon the wreck of the Ship, till we could return with the other Ship's boat to save them. We rowed away the boat, and went to the Ship that wasin view; when there, the Captain asked me ifall the people were come; I told him no, because * When thou passest through the waters, I will be witl thec. Isaiah. chap. 43, ver., 2. --- Page 58 --- (54) our boat was too small to we came to beg his carry them, and serable Creatures. assistance, for those miwhich are now mainder of the wreck. He upon 66 the re46 save themselves if they said, they may 46 cannot the can, but as for me I go, weather is too favorable me to' lose a minutes time; for sifyou like to save them; but you may go back as for me, I will with go my way." So he sailed, and we went him; the others remained wreck of the Ship, in the midst ofa wide upon the without either help or hope. The Occan, saved me was a French Ship, and steered Ship for which own place. his The 21st day of June 1 803, at were met by an English Vessel being who told Sea, we war was declared between France us that and for that reason we weretaken and England. conducted to Plymouth, prisoners, and I stay'd 35 days in Plymouth, and was sent after to Tiverton in Devon/hire upon Parole of Honour; there I remained five months, and sent afterwards to Alhbourn in was rived at Aflbourn the 17th Derby/hire. Iarofdecember 1 was in such a deplorable state of mind, 803, and did not know what to do. Very often the that I lic house was the place wheré I went to pub- seek comfort, by getting intoxicated, and then casting all my sorTOWS behind me; I after awhile took such a delight in this course of that it became quite an habit to me; I was life, the greatcst Sabbath breaker that ever existed; I was daily fighting or swearing the most execrable th Derby/hire. Iarofdecember 1 was in such a deplorable state of mind, 803, and did not know what to do. Very often the that I lic house was the place wheré I went to pub- seek comfort, by getting intoxicated, and then casting all my sorTOWS behind me; I after awhile took such a delight in this course of that it became quite an habit to me; I was life, the greatcst Sabbath breaker that ever existed; I was daily fighting or swearing the most execrable --- Page 59 --- (55 ) which was enough to excite the anger of Oaths, me. One morning being half GOD against when drunk, Iwent out to take a walk; passing through a dark foot path, I was persuaded by some evil spirit to put an end to my miserable life. For that purpose I went into the darkest of the place, and took my knife out ofmy part the horrid deed. The pocket to accomplish lifted and the stroke instrument was already but an Angel Pa the LORD, (Or was to ensue; my rebellious fome thing of that kind,) stopped from it; theni hand, and my wcapon dropped ideas came into my mind such as these, many art thou to 66 Oh! miserable wretch, going remember 66 plunge thyself into eternal misery? if thou c6 thou art going into Hell head-long, 65 dost such a thing." I was struck with terror with those ideas, and was SO frighted, that I durst not move from the place for fcar that the GOD should fall justice of an avenging upon me. I stay'd in that place for some time, and went home with such a burden, that I couldhardly bear: having my head cast down as if I was a criminal, for I durst upon no account lift it up. for several days in a such distressed state Iwas of mind, that I had not courage enough to go out; for I thought evèry body knew what was the matter with mc; and to appease my wounded conscience, I thought that a reformation would have been sufficient to justify me in the sight of GOD: SO that I began to build, as it is said by a few upon a sandy foundation, performing --- Page 60 --- (56) formal duties; thinking that I should merit the favours by ofi my good works, to. forgive' me all my trespasses. GOD The SO as had: formed was this: I Catholic having a prayer diemt sufficient to calm book, I thought it was allmy troubled bririg me to a perfect state of breast, and to every night and morning I used happiness. to kncel So and: taking! the prayer. book I read the down, and evening prayer; this performance morning would please GOD, and get me from Ithought the: terrors of an accused conscience: but under these vain duties I never looked to in all giveness or remission of sins, neither JESUS to his for.forcious and cleansing blood, nor could I prethe depravity ofmy corrupted nature: butI perceive depended wholly upon my best cndcavours and good works. I.continued but. a little. in' doing those erroncous duties, and: time sibly at last that all my fears were vanished feltiinsenIwas like the dog, returning to his away; for I begun the same method as before, vomit again: all sorts of bad company, and breaking keeping the sabbath with drinking, swearing and &c. was at the least five days drunk in fighting the I always quarrelling. week, and a One day in one ofmy. mad fits, (though Iwas mot: drunk, ) I resolved to delay no to an- end : to my miserable existence; longer pus that purpose I went into a garden near for same instrument that had been lifted by: the wasagain employed; I was in such great up beforc, that I-was relentless towards despair, my own life and and breaking keeping the sabbath with drinking, swearing and &c. was at the least five days drunk in fighting the I always quarrelling. week, and a One day in one ofmy. mad fits, (though Iwas mot: drunk, ) I resolved to delay no to an- end : to my miserable existence; longer pus that purpose I went into a garden near for same instrument that had been lifted by: the wasagain employed; I was in such great up beforc, that I-was relentless towards despair, my own life and --- Page 61 --- (57) SO that I lifted up my sanguinary *I feil happincis; and struck my left breast twice hand who were near;' down senseless; some persons I made, which licaring the exclamation I shall never see thee again! was, Oh! Mother, the matter; and to their came to see what was in my own great surprise, found me wallowing room for dead, blood. They carried me into my the Doctor. As went to fetch and some person wounds, which were soon as the Doctor saw my I can be of no use through my lungs, he said, minutes to live; him? for he has not ten to I may be of service to him: and but ifhe does, soon fetched back again went away. But he was When he came the sefor I was not dead. to drink which cond time, he gave me something inside being recalled me to my senses : would my be to he thought it proper full ofblood, ease me a little, for I could bleed mc, it might After I was bled I fell into-a hardly breathe. then said, ifhel lives till one swoon; the Doctor Some-body went to o'Clock it will lbe a wonder. who lived in the fetch a Catholic Minister+, hetold me to rewhen he saw me, same Town; thatI had commend my soul to GOD, saying, do untot thee, O thou preserver . ethavesinel: what shali I mark tliee, SO that of men? why hast thou set me as chap. a 7. ver. against 20. I am a burden to myself. what Job, they went for him; but I +Idid not know for purposc unto me the Extreme-Unction; supposed it was to administer the Roman Catholic thâta man Or for as it is réported among having received the Extreme-Unetion, woman dying without must either go to Hell, or in (sehich tiey call a Sacranent,) Purgatory. H --- Page 62 --- (58) but a few minutes to live: and afier hortation he went out of the this short Cxtoo much for him to see. room, saying, it was I was restless all the not sleep on account of night, for I could wounds. When the soreness of my and SO feverish, morning that came Iwas SO weak could not live to see the the Doctor thought I and yet alive: sun set. Night camc, butIwas SO as before tormented with ideas mentioned, that I durst eyes for fear I should awake not shut my three nights without in Hell. I was was afraid to fall taking the Jeast rest; for I sure thing in asleep, as I made it a should awake my mind, that if I fell no more, I felt asleep, I miserable condition, that I myselfin such a would never thought GOD bed, forgive me. all the time I was in Ilay upon thorns as it SO filled with grief and were; for I was my misbchaviour towards sorrow, the occasioned by that my life was quite miserable, everlasting being, During the time of my aflliction, I ideas and thoughts had-such appeared to myself concérning the vilest of my state, that I all that I did not know from men; but for thoughts and ideas. whence came these Iwas six or seven weeks beforc I out; and was a great while before I could walk any strength. Iwas five months in could get 1 distressing state of mind, and the most mented by some or continually tornot discern. Some thing other, which I could a little, but no times I went out to meditate sooner was I out, but was forced to myself concérning the vilest of my state, that I all that I did not know from men; but for thoughts and ideas. whence came these Iwas six or seven weeks beforc I out; and was a great while before I could walk any strength. Iwas five months in could get 1 distressing state of mind, and the most mented by some or continually tornot discern. Some thing other, which I could a little, but no times I went out to meditate sooner was I out, but was forced --- Page 63 --- (59) ) because I could not rest to return home again; dréadful and where. One day after many any ideas, I felt some thing extraordinary frightful and then for the first time, I perceived in me; and one beyond expression: thatIwas a sinner*; the horrible state in which I was plunged; I saw the very brink of destrucI felt that I was upon could alleviate tion: and felt also, that no one I went pains but GOD. For that purpose my hear : when there, I could nothing to church; At night I went to that could do me any good. there I did not find any the Methodist Chapel; free. When at home, I comfort SO as to set me but the but could say nothing went to prayer; which Iknew from myinfancy. LORD's prayer, the week in reading the new TestaI spent daily with impatience for the ment; and longed to of Sabbath, that I might try again return where I could lay all my burden, scek a place * Though I had bad a taste and a view ofthe and love a ofGOD, great de- (as 3y01L may read in theformer part I ofmy did not life,) feel the corruption sire to serve and worship him; the yet weight and burden of of my fallen nature, neither great I was far from thinking my inveterate sins and worth transgressions: and want of a precious SAVIOUR. ofthe inestimable to knowlodge; I was like I had a zzal, but not according Paul the tenth chapter that sect which the Apostle speaksofin for being, ignorant of of Romans and the third verse: about they, to establish their own GOD's Righteousness, and submitted going themselves unto the RighRighteousness, have not tcousness of GOD. through the LORD JESUS CHRIST, eI thank GOD, me unto his blessed and Everlasting ce that He has subjected of this? that withf Righteousnessy and made me sensible sins mustfor ever remain," f out the Blood ofhis dcar Son, my , but not according Paul the tenth chapter that sect which the Apostle speaksofin for being, ignorant of of Romans and the third verse: about they, to establish their own GOD's Righteousness, and submitted going themselves unto the RighRighteousness, have not tcousness of GOD. through the LORD JESUS CHRIST, eI thank GOD, me unto his blessed and Everlasting ce that He has subjected of this? that withf Righteousnessy and made me sensible sins mustfor ever remain," f out the Blood ofhis dcar Son, my --- Page 64 --- I 60) ) When that SION happy day was come, I went to Chapei: the text was taken out of-the twenty-seventh chapter oftbe last verse; 66 and it shall Prophet Isaiah, the 66 great trumpet shall be blown" come to pass when the aitentive at the &c. I was very hear soine preaching, in hopes I could passage that, might. tressed mind. The Minister comfort my disthe Brazen Serpent in his brought forward when Moses lifted it he discourse, sayings shall believe in it, shall up, be said; whosoever the Son of mah be liftéd saved; for thus shalt fort from these words, up. Ifelt a little commy troubled mind; but not suflicient.to calm my faith. As Ihad not because heard ofthe weakness of night to the Methodist sufficient, I went at likethe sermon, but did Châpel. I did not disI did at SION not feél SO much there as better than I did Chapcl: the I spent the week rather distressed. last, and was not SO much One morning I went to take a walk, fifty yards from the house, I when not served GOD when I remembered I had with shame, that I got up; I was SO struck ran back to mny chamber to say my prayers. Such a thing as that unto me three times, but was always happened by the fear ofGOD, for I durst not overcome account go out, ofmy room except I had on any thanks to GOD for bis render'd mercy; for I thought, that protecting grace and bis wrath would fall ifI wâs to neglect, Sunday upon me &c. much came, which I longed for with SO impaticnce; and with joy I went again to --- Page 65 --- (61) The text was takeni out of-thé SION Chapel. the third Epistle of Paul to the Philippians, 66 and be found chapter, and the ninth verse; of: be found in him," 66 in him." The very word and proved sweet to it; went deeply to my heart, and released me from all my for it conforted me convinced me ofall the errors guilty fears; and Nature. Iv was SO overjoyed we are liable to by that I could not depart from the at that sermon, to the Minister *; to tell place till I had spoken received under his labour. him the benifit I had what I had heard and tastI went home joyful at and sorrows away: ed, and I cast all my cares him who shed his and was only thinking to serve blood for me. to take place by Now persecution began called me all sorts aE worldly companions; they me with pushameful namest, even threâtened the word nishment if I did continue in hearing the stréets of GOD. I could not go through from without meeting with some ill treatment I them; but as I did not mind what they the said, scaftold them I would sooner go to fold and suffer Death, than renounce continued JESUS for a CHRIST. Their persecutions take notice, long time, but seeing I did not any they were obliged to let me go in pcace. of worship I went to no other place * the Reverend Samuel Franklin, of Ebley then in Gloncestershire, at Ashbourn in Minister in Lady Huntingdon's connection, Derbyshire. + Mly friends scorn me; but mine eye poureth out tears unto GOD. Job, chap. 16, ver. 20. to fold and suffer Death, than renounce continued JESUS for a CHRIST. Their persecutions take notice, long time, but seeing I did not any they were obliged to let me go in pcace. of worship I went to no other place * the Reverend Samuel Franklin, of Ebley then in Gloncestershire, at Ashbourn in Minister in Lady Huntingdon's connection, Derbyshire. + Mly friends scorn me; but mine eye poureth out tears unto GOD. Job, chap. 16, ver. 20. --- Page 66 --- (62) but SION, where I first found the ofthe Crucified One. Some times I treasure selftoo unworthy to be saved; but thought myI had better thoughts, at cther times Manasseh, and other when reflecting on Paul, The week before characters &c. and was Good Friday I was taken ill, In the obliged to keep my bed several mean time I prayed unto days, me health and strength, that I GOD to give go and hear his word that might be able to my Salvation; but it precious day he bought very day. I was was not permited; for that because. 00 Icould extremely ill, and wept not 80 to SION bitterly So I called for a . new. Testament my that happy place. read a chapter or two; I might I - could not read; and but,I was SO weak, that down. In the afternoon was forced to put the book ter, and took the book I felt myselfa little bet: whichI I received I read a chapter, by some comfort. Iwas very patient under iny more I was afilicted, the afflictions, for the forted; I did not fear the more my mind was combecause, I had faith sting of Death at all, to believe I should be Py. In a few weeks I was entirely hapand the LORD soon after blessed recovered, Spirit of me with the prayer, SO that I could in CHRISTin their join my friends Now I am fully convinced labours, that I and brought back to the flock of whom am found, CHRISTIS the Shepherd: and I will adore JESUS and praise him for what He has done for me Grace, and trust in Him for what He has through mised to do. pro- --- Page 67 --- ( (63) d O! most blessed JESUS, thou who 66 been pleascd to protect me SO hast 66 dangers, and watched through many c6 over me ever since my youthful days; be pleased I beseech thee, to keep me now that Iam found: I did not 66 myself, thou knowest; but it was find G6 most blessed who found thou, O! 66 and JESUS me when lost ready to sink into the of 66 Thou hast valley destruction. brought me from thousands 66 to shew me thy light divine, and to ofmiles 6r a prisoner of hope instead ofa maké me 66 O1 Eternal THREEi in ONE, prisoner look down ofwar. 66 thine unworthy servant, and water on s6 with the dew of thy Heavenly his Soul be Grace, that he may prepared to receive that never 66 Crown, which is at the end ofthe race thou fading 66 enabled him to run: and help him to hast 66 all other works but thine. Now I renounce 66 the riches and pleasures oft this forsake all 66 Eternal life which world, for the Ce cious Blood was purchased: by the pre. ofthy dear Son 66 I beseech thee, to JESUS: to which 66 end." AMEN. keep me now, and to the THE WEST INDIAN. 4e HYMN, This myy son was dead, and is alice again; he zeas lost andis found." PRODIGAL'S FATHER, though six thousand miles from home, Dearer to my GOD I Ner Twas JESU'S love that set mhefiee, come: And And brought me back by grace'to thee, JESUS willlead me to see; Eternal days. 66 I beseech thee, to JESUS: to which 66 end." AMEN. keep me now, and to the THE WEST INDIAN. 4e HYMN, This myy son was dead, and is alice again; he zeas lost andis found." PRODIGAL'S FATHER, though six thousand miles from home, Dearer to my GOD I Ner Twas JESU'S love that set mhefiee, come: And And brought me back by grace'to thee, JESUS willlead me to see; Eternal days. --- Page 68 --- And'now that I aim found,--keep me That Imay never from thee: Thus fll my soul TRIA thy frce grace, Thatl may run. the christian race, And see my SAVIOUR face to face; In endless days. Thou didst seek me when a stranger, In my guilt and road to danger, And to bring me home to my GOD, Didst interpos'd thy precious blood, That I might sing with saints aloud; Through endless days, O! blessed be the sacred Place,* WhereI have found such Heav'nly That sav'd me from my nature's fali, grace, And give me on my GOD to call; O! JESUS at thy feetl fall: Through endless days. Till then, do thou in my heart dwell, Ruie in it and do all things well: Lead me to that e'erblessed place, Where I liope to behold thy face, And help me thy foot-steps to trace; To endless rest. There Ishall praise my SAVIQUR dear, While his own Righteousness I wear: III shout and sing redeeming love, Which did my first affections move, And never more will let me rove; Through endless days. * SION Chapel, FINIS, WARKEE,PXINTER, and AUCTIONEER, ASHEOU RM. --- Page 69 --- --- Page 70 --- --- Page 71 --- EA804 Hills --- Page 72 --- *